I’m Surprised He Is Not
Here I am headed back to bed. My heart still feeling like it could jump right out of my chest. I have no choice but to be still. To let God be God in my life. My weakness is leaving me speechless. My pain has clearly knocked the breath out of me.
It’s always unsettling when you feel you’ve lost all control. Panic knocks relentlessly at your heart’s door. Satan hopes you will freak out. He hopes you will give up the faith that God can or will change anything. Those temptations still stare me in the face daily.
Fortunately, this is not unknown territory for me. I know God is near my broken heart. I know God will give me the strength and support needed. With every breath in and out I’m praying. Just asking God to calm me, hold me, and help me through this present storm. I really didn’t see it coming. However, I know nothing takes God by surprise.
“Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you.” 1 Peter 4:12