Take A Deep Breath
Overall, today went way better than I could’ve expected. It was a blessing getting to preach God’s word to two full Sunday services. I had to do everything possible to overcome my pain. I kept ice or heat on my back at all times. I had to limit my interaction with others in order to preserve my strength.
When I started preaching the first service I became very concerned. I felt completely out of breath and the pain was breathtaking. I thought I was gonna break down crying any moment. Suddenly, God flooded me with extra strength and peace to make it through. I could tell throughout the services, God was using my brokenness to connect with others who felt broken in some way.
I got along fairly well the rest of the day. Then, evening arrived and my present reality surfaced again. I told my wife that I feel like a prisoner in my own body. This kind of pain really does drastically change your life. You can hardly do anything you may want to do. If you can do something the pain just zaps all your energy. It can definitely steal your joy if you let it.
Tonight, I’m just having to take a deep breath and say thank you God. Thank you God for what I can do. Thank you for working even when my body fails me. Thank you God for doing things I can’t do at this time. Thank you God for having a master plan for everything I’m going through. Thank you God for promising to walk with me through the valleys. I couldn’t make it through without you. I’m sure there are brighter days to come and greater purpose to be revealed.
Please pray that my much needed pain shot and Myelogram are scheduled asap. I’m hoping I hear something tomorrow. Pray God gives me the strength and clarity I need to prepare for three Easter services and a big funeral this weekend. Moving forward I will definitely be getting in the bed much earlier. I’m convinced that solid rest is just as important as any medication.
Thanks so much to those of you who have been praying for me. I can certainly feel your prayers.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28
Pastor Craig Crosby 