No Use To Worry
This morning at 8am I will finally have my long-awaited myelogram. This is a diagnostic imaging test that uses a contrast dye and CT scan to look for problems in the spinal canal. This procedure should reveal anything developing in my spinal cord, nerve roots, and other tissues. All I really know is I need to discover what’s really changed in my back. Unfortunately, my stimulator implant doesn’t allow me to have an MRI so this is the route I must go for further discovery.
Out of all the testing I’ve done in the past, this one just means a little more. One, I’m hoping that everything still looks good with my spinal cord stimulator. Two, I’m hoping nothing major has gone on with one of my vertebrae above or below my L5 S1 fusion. Three, I’m just hoping there are no crazy discoveries they find that demand a long road towards further healing.
At the end of the day, I realize my worrying changes nothing. So, I’m just praying God’s will is done in my life. I’m praying God reveals clearly what needs to be revealed. I’m praying God gives me courage and strength to face whatever is discovered.
This is just one more step in my faith journey. I will be at the hospital much of the day. But, I will leave with a copy of my myelogram results from 2018 and 2023. Don’t know if I will be able to understand them or compare them myself. But, next week I follow up with my pain specialist for further explanations.
Pray that my back pain stays under control. I will have to lay flat for several hours. I will be without my heating pads and some medications. I will be glad to get this behind me.
“Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”