Embarrassing, Debilitating and Miserable
My pain has kept me in the bed literally all day long. Even when I thought things were turning around, I’ve quickly been proven wrong. I’ve rested all day and I’m already headed back to bed. I’ve learned that sometimes there’s no use in fighting with this level of pain. Pain like this affects you in so many ways whether you want to accept it or not.
One, it’s just miserable to endure. It’s makes nothing feel easy and sucks the joy clean out of you. You can make all the plans you want, but you still feel so bad. It wouldn’t matter what you chose to do. Even if it’s stuff you would normally enjoy you simply can’t enjoy it.
Two, pain is debilitating and can make the smallest tasks seem impossible. Just carrying on a conversation or thinking about a simple task feels overwhelming. My body has been consumed with debilitating nerve pain all day. Now, I’m battling with a pounding headache on top of it all.
Last, but not least pain can feel real embarrassing. None of us like to sound weak or like we can’t handle life’s sufferings. Extreme pain can’t be hidden easily and shouldn’t be hidden period. When you know you need prayer you’ve got to ask for it. Trust me, I wish I could just declare that I’ve got it all together. However, today has proven once again that I can’t even walk without the Lord holding my hand.
Please pray my pain, mind and heart will settle down. I’m trying so hard to find the right balance with my extra medication. I just didn’t expect to wake up this way or for this misery to keep hanging around. I’m putting it all in God’s hands right now. I’m also being obedient as I’m prompted by God to tell you “it’s okay to say you’re not okay.”
In fact, if you’ve got a pain, heartache, struggle or prayer request that’s deeply bothering you. Please mention it in the comments below so others can pray for you. I will lift you up and I will read everyone of them in the morning.
“Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.” James 5:16