I’ve God A Bug Zapper Inside Me
I remember clearly something my grandparents had hanging underneath their outside carport. It was a blue fluorescent light in something shaped like a small bird cage. If any bugs got near it they didn’t have a chance at survival. When any got near the light it would start zapping them with some kind of electrical magnetic field. You could just hear and see it constantly going crazy over any bugs nearby.
Well, this bug zapper is much like my nerve pain when its at it’s very worse. Right this very moment the nerve pain within me is beyond sensitive. Any sound or movement nearby is sparking electricity throughout my entire lower body. Within seconds of whatever my body detects things are lit up within. Even my wife who has been around it countless days can’t understand it. How can she? I can’t fully comprehend it and it’s going on inside of my body.
If someone outside nearby is running any loud piece of equipment my nerves can wake me out of a deep sleep. Electricity runs through both feet, legs, and sometimes all the way into my face. There is literally nothing I can do to stop it or fully explain it. I’m hoping my spinal cord stimulator rep can meet me very soon to get my device adjusted in hopes of calming the madness within me. As I’ve stated before the Neuropathy level within me only 10 perfect of anyone with nerve pain experiences. I’m laying on my side now with no ability to stop this thorn in my flesh.
“Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:7-10