Sitting here just taking one deep breath at a time. Honestly, I’ve got a lot of settling down to do. Physically, emotionally, mentally, socially and spiritually. I need to be still and know God is in control. My overall pain is under control presently. The angry nerves throughout my body just won’t quit going crazy. Now, all I can do is control what I know might help.
One, I don’t need to talk about it too much right now. Two, I need to remember God’s faithfulness in the past. Three, I need to keep doing what I do know as I trust God with all I don’t know. Four, I need to keep taking the next God led step. Lastly, I need to realize that I’m not where I used to be and I’m not all I’m gonna be.
The last month has been such a blessing. I’ve not experienced any neurological crashes. My ability to focus and live have been so encouraging. I’ve just ran into a few rough patches and discouraging moments. But, life is full of ups and downs for us all.
My blessings still far out weigh my disappointments. No doubt my glass is still more than half full. Today’s tough days are nothing compared to my worse days in the past. Thank you Jesus for peace, healing, answers, purpose, and the joy of knowing you are always at work. Especially in the midst of our trials you are working for us and despite us.
“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” James 1:2-4