It tears you down. It wears you down. When the pain never stops. All you can do is keep dog paddling so you don’t drown. Physically, emotionally, mentally, socially, and spiritually it makes everything feel ten times harder. You know in your heart the season you’re in will never leave you the same.
Honestly, even after 49 months of nonstop discomfort. I still have a lot of dog paddle moments. Times when I’m just shaking my head in disbelief of the breath knocked out of me. There’s no denying the brokenness gives you greater humility. God suddenly has your full attention.
I’m in another season of embracing my new normal. I can’t stay obsessed with my pain. I must seek God with all my heart to press through my pain. Time has definitely proven I can’t get through this alone. However, if I keep my little hand in God’s big hand. I’m certain I will see the goodness of God. Hopefully, many will see the glory of God.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28